he smsed me... asking how's m i lately..
its been almost 2 yrs since i hear frm him..
i trembled in fear cum coldness when i read the sms..
nv in my life i tot of hearing frm him anymore..
it was den i realise tt he doesnt seem as impt as it was...
hostile smses were my replies..

as valentine day draws closer, demoralisation seems to crawl in..
cheers to my "better off without u" feeling...
this marks the nearing of 2 yrs single-lism..

been tgt quite alot frequently..
bt the feeling seems to haf chged...
at least 1%.. bt i can sense it..
i voiced out over the weekend somewhere along the beach..
with the little red drink..
i hope the gers din get bored..

i haf to ctrl myself frm tinking further..
as tings chge unctrllably..
i m resisting myself frm falling back again...

so many tings chged as i aged..
be it the way i gauge ppl..
the way i handle tings..
the way i self-medicate..

my tinking seems to haf straighten out over the past 2 weeks...

magic happened to ^me12:54 AM